I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear making decisions about my relationships based on uncertainty: of the outcome, of the possibility of making the wrong choice, creating unforeseen consequences, having regret or being seen as wrong and/or foolish.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have regretted many decisions I have made in the past within relationships and how this has resulted in a lack of self-trust and even now when I ‘see for the first time’ the pattern and the habit of, for instance, wanting others to help me with my own decisions and I see and understand how this has not served me it is still my ‘default ‘mode, my first ‘line of defense’ that comes up within making decisions – i.e., wanting to ‘run it by’ or ‘talk it over’ with others etc. and not bringing it within myself to decide by myself
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear standing independently within making my decisions in relationships and to use various excuses that ultimately compromise myself such as, not wanting to ‘hurt’ another; ‘feeling sorry’ for them, being afraid to be alone, etc.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make decisions out of fear and avoidance instead of allowing myself to explore what is really best for me within taking full responsibility and awareness that the consequences may not be predictable.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to do all I can to avoid negative consequences from my decisions and to have created negative consequences with the very act of avoiding them.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid asking what is really best for me and allowing myself the permission to pursue what is best for me and to have instead compromised myself in exchange for habit and predictability, blaming others or ‘circumstances’ rather than changing my life to address the responsibility I have to myself and to humanity as a whole.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have avoided the work of deciding who am I in relation to my life and my future and to have instead concentrated my time and energy within relationships; seeking experiences of relationships to define myself.
I commit to no more keeping my world small; defining myself within limitation.
I commit to continuing the process of establishing a personal relationship with myself, within seeing and realizing that within defining myself with others I lose myself.
I commit to take steps to see realize and understand that placing my relationship with myself is first and foremost liberating and not frightening.
I commit to not use another as a scapegoat for not taking full responsibility for myself.
I commit to expand and grow and develop myself as a practical decision that I take for myself.